A Feeling

Have you ever had this feeling that something might be ending soon? You have even tried really hard to keep what ever it is together. Well that is how I feel right now. I was having a great time and then out of know where someone I know changed...a lot. Its not a bad thing to change but it was a little weird cause he didn't seem like the same person. Yesterday this person I am talking about and I were talking and one of the things we talked about I didn't really like. While we talked I found out some things I was wondering about. I also found out why this person changed.

This person was jealous of another relationship. I didn't think anything of it until a little bit later. He told me something else and that kind of irritated me. He was jealous because this other relationship can do what they want when they want. That really irritated me, I told him the only reason why we can't is because my mom and dad are just being protective. They don't want me hurt. And you know what walking somewhere I don't care about, I just would rather have it with someone else to so we know nothing will happen and that we are all safe.

It is really hard to think that we might break up just because of a dumb thing like being jealous of something else. I got this thought because while I was doing dishes last night I thought about what was said. The only thing that came to me is that the person who was jealous thought our relationship wasn't good enough. That hurt a lot. A part of me really wanted to say forget it its over and a part of me still wanted to hold on.

This conversation kept going for a little bit longer. I got so mad I was fighting tears. I had to stop talking because if I kept going I more than likely would have said something I would have regretted later. So I stopped the conversation. Then I went to bed.

While laying in bed I couldn't stop thinking of what could happen because of the conversation. I layed in bed trying to fall asleep for about 10 minutes. Something out of know where just told me to go to sleep. I had the weirdest dream that actually scared me so much, my heart was beating really fast. That was actually what woke me up for a little bit.

You know how in the Bible it says that God will come back and take the people who believe in him with him and then the people who don't believe him will be left behind and the world will be really bad. Well in my dream it was kind of like that but actually a little different.

We were at High Point and my sister and I were watching two 9 month old twins. It was a normal school day. Out of no where everyone got really scared. I could hear people screaming in the other room and then I saw Satan (I saw Satan from the movie "The Passion") My sister and I both had one of the girls and we held them close and tightly so nothing would happen to them. My heart was beating so fast I didn't know what else to do. Then Satan said Jimmy (it was a different name but I am not going to say their name. It is someone from my school though) and then all of a sudden Jimmy was gone. All you saw was him there and then splat blood and gone.

After Satan left I got up and walked around the school. I wanted to see who all was still here. I was still holding that 9 month old twin I had. After a while I went to go look for my boyfriend. I couldn't find him at all. I was getting worried. (Somewhere between me leaving the room and actually finding my boyfriend someone took the 9 month old I was holding) When I found my boyfriend I gave him the biggest hug ever and was so happy he was still there. I put my head on his chest and cried. I was so happy he was there but still really scared.

(This is not the dream now) Right after that I was a little bit a wake but still asleep. My little sister said good bye to us because she was going on a school field trip. I didn't want to get up. I wanted to just hide and make sure everyone was ok that was in the dream. I am not sure if this is a sign from God or not but it did really scare me and I wish that it wont happen at all. But knowing the book of Revelations and how God tells us that the world will end I am sure something like that will happen but God will take the people who believe in him and leave the rest behind. I hope you all believe in the Lord our Savior. He is the only way to Heaven.

Believe in him, Trust him, Accept him into your heart so we will be together in the future.